January 2001 I´m sending this to my relatives and friends that are praying for me, during my time of need for healing of my throat and esophagus. It has been seven days, since I have been able to do more than just drink water and eat yogurt. I appreciate everyone's concern and your prayers. I realize that most people would have gone to the hospital to correct this problem. But as many of you know, I have multiple allergies and for me to take the risk of being put to sleep for surgery, could result in my death. I am allergic also to the agents they use for that purpose. God has healed me time after time, and I have nothing but high praise for my blessed Lord. I stand on faith because it is something we all need to do. At this point, I am at God´s mercy. I must trust God to heal me. I am confident that He will do what He says he will do. As long as I am faithful to Him and the Word, and follow the guidelines for healing that He has ordained, I see no reason whatsoever for God not to heal me.  All week I have been trying to figure out why this happened to me, how just a piece of pineapple in my throat for 2 hours, could possibility cause me not to be able to eat. Well, I sorted out the medical reasons why. I knew that I had to stand firm in faith to get through this problem. But Satan of course had to stick his nose into the situation by creating fear. I fought this fear daily, first thinking I had it licked, then the next thing I knew, it was back. Finally, I told God that I was getting nowhere fighting the same battle repeatedly. Then He reminded me that perfect love (His love) casts away all fear, and that where fear and doubt abides, faith is impossible. With that in mind, I got a death grip on faith, and sent my fears packing. I have offended some for my strong stand and I am sorry. I do understand why so many advised me to go a man (doctor) for help, and I have no problem with people going for treatment. But in my case, treatment could likely mean death. And I want to live and declare the glory and awesome healing power of my God, so I chose this path. A few minutes ago, I was watching John Hagee on TV. And in that moment, I knew exactly why I am going through this affliction. Last Sunday, I was also listening to Pastor Hagee, and his sermon was on Promise, Problem and Provision. He said that God gives us many promises and if we are wise we stand on them. But many times when we do this, a problem comes into our lives. He mentioned the wandering Jews who spent year after year, making the same mistake because they didnt work their way through to His provision. I thought to myself, that I, too, was guilty of this many times in my life. Although I knew that recently I had determined that problems were no big deal, all I had to do was work through them. I heard the Holy Spirit say to me, “Have you managed to do that successfully?” and my response was, certainly not as well as I should.... maybe not very well at all. Today, Pastor Hagee's words about promise, problem and provision hit me right between the eyes. This I believe has happened to me so this time I can say, yes, I stand on God's promises, and yes, Lord, I will work my way through it until I get to the provision! This has been one of the most difficult testings I have had (we all know how enjoyable eating is!). I have never fasted for a week, but now I know I can if I have to do so. My diet was 2 yogurts a day and lots of water (and lots of weight loss). I have been unable to take the supplements for my blood pressure or any other vitamins that I use to treat myself naturally. But all this time I knew that God was sustaining me and I didnt feel much weakness or tiredness until the past couple of days. He is a faithful God, an awesome loving God! I know He will bring me to the provision very soon now. Every time I open my bible my eyes fall on a new promise or words of encouragement or healing. I am so thrilled with His ways, His love, His loving care and mercy that I could shout from the rooftops, Jesus is Lord! He really never does leave us or forsake us! He is always faithful to His own. I feel so overwhelmed by His love and His mysterious ways. I know that I know that I know, that He is God, the only true and living God, the merciful, loving God of the Universe! God bless each of you with His richest blessings. Because He lives I will live, Tara My fast ended after 42 days on March 13th, 2001   Hello Everyone, I have so much to tell you, but do not know where to start. I have some exciting news. I AM HEALED! This is so awesome! I am so happy and blessed, and full of joy and anticipation Our God is so merciful, so loving and compassionate. It is time to praise the Lord! I ate my first real meal in 2months! I actually ate eye of round roast, broccoli, potatoes, and lots of other yummy tihngs. Later in the evening, I ate a turkey sandwich, potato salad and a donut. I am healed!!!!!!! I know that I sound overly excited about food, but you know why! Our God is so totally awesome! And with the healing came such revelation that I am so overwhelmed, that I wonder if my feet are Still on the ground? This fast was for a reason. I felt during this time, that He was speaking to me about a ministry. But I thought perhaps I was mistaking what I sensed because of my condition. But I was not! He so clearly laid it all out for me last night, as though He were sending me a love letter and telling me just what He expected of me. I am in the process now of finding a server so I can set up a Christian web-site. The things He wants me to put on it are totally awesome. I have so many decisions to make and people to enlist to help me. I hope to have a chat on the site with counselors there for the express purpose of spiritual and physical help and healing. This is the mountain-top that I waited patiently for during the 42 days of my fast!!! Praise be to God for His unsearchable ways! I walked through the valley of the shadow of death and made it through to the other side. I did not crawl through the valley. I walked. I feared no evil because He was with me. The shadow of death was only a shadow and nothing more! Oh, Praise God, for his mercy endures forever! Oh, how I love Jesus! He is my source, my hope, my lover, my companion, my helper, my guide, my wonderful Lord and Savior. My cup is running over and I just want His Spirit that has so filled me, to spill over onto to everyone I meet and talk to. Can you tell how happy in the Lord I am? All those trying days were worth the promised end. He promised to heal me, to sustain me through those days, and He did just what He promised He would do! It was a test to see if I could endure, To see if I would be faithful, If I could be patient, and could stand on the faith that He gave me. He wanted me to hold on until He knew that He could trust me to do His will. It was a dark valley of my soul, but He led me through and brought me to this end. He knew if he gave me the mountain- top first, He could not get my full attention. And He needed my full attention, so He could take me each step of this long walk. I had to hold onto His hand in faith, and not for one second lean on my own strength or knowledge. Then there was one last test of faith. As I told you, I was able to start eating soft things, ten days ago, and I was so glad. But 5 days after that, I got a horrible stomach virus and was so sick. I could not even keep liquids down for a couple of days. I had already lost 17pds during my fast and was very weak even before the virus took its toll. It was then, I said, Lord, you have told me to tell you, when I need a break, when I am almost to the breaking point. The next day, He honored my request. That night, I asked Him again to please complete my healing. The next day, I heard him say as I was making dinner for my family. “Tara, you are going to eat today with your family.” My family was a bit skeptical. After all, they had traveled with me through this dark tunnel, and did not want me to go back to square one. But I assured them that the Holy Spirit said it was okay. And as I prepared the meal, I knew that it was going to be okay to eat whatever I wanted, and I did. My 4 year-old grandson who lives with me, was shocked when he saw me sit down with a plate of food. He watched as I took the first bite, as did the others. Then He got the most incredible look on his face, and said. "Nanny, you are eating! God did this, didn´t he? He really healed you!" And those words from my little prince, really made my day! I want to thank everyone from the bottom of my heart, for all your concern and prayers that you sent my way. It was your continued prayers and cards that helped to give me the courage to go on, and never doubt that my healing was on its way. I will forever be grateful to all of you, for your love and support during one of the most trying times of my life. I apologize if I was rude or did anything to upset you during my fast. It was by far one of the hardest things I have ever done. I am beginning to regain my strength and hope to be strong soon so I can resume all my activities again. I will send all of you my web-site address when it is completed, which may take a couple of months. May God bless each of you with joy that is never-ending, with a heart full of love for Jesus, and with the peace that passes all our understanding. Thank you again for your love and support. And may He reward you with His love and overcoming faith. Because He lives, I live. Tara Hart (3/14/2001)