I was saved when I was nine years old, and filled with the Holy Spirit at thirteen. At seventeen, I got away from God. I then began to drink, and started experimenting with drugs. At nineteen, my parents kicked me out, because of my drinking and drugs. So, with nowhere to go, I had to live on the street. I tried deadening the pain of abuse and rejection, by staying drunk and looking for love in all the wrong ways.

I would try to get my life right, but the pull of the world was still too strong for me. I got into prostitution, and drank more and more just to cover the shame and guilt of that kind of life. Because of the life I was living, I suffered more physical, mental, and sexual abuse. I was so angry, and so full of hurt.

At twenty-three, I tried to commit suicide by taking a bottle of pills. But, God was watching over me, and He did not let me go! I met my husband, and he took me off the streets and gave me a home. Yet, I still could not stop drinking and doing drugs. We started making speed and shooting it in our arms. I stayed in turmoil for ten more years.

At thirty-four, I was pregnant with my third child. Then, my mother passed away in her sleep. Just three months later, my dad shot himself.

I knew that I could not run from God any longer. I ran to Him, and He so mercifully took me back. He filled me again with His Spirit, and began a new work in my life. It has been a hard process of healing, thirty-four years of anger, hurt, and very deep wounds. But God has been so merciful to me.

He has brought me a long way, in five short years! He washed away all the shame and guilt, and delivered me of depression and panic attacks. It would take a book to tell all the things, He has done for me. I praise Him for all of it! NO ONE can love you, like Jesus can! I will sing of His love forever!